In loving memory of a wonderful friend: AGYA


He was young and funny. He was a dreamer, sunny bunny. Above all he was a wonderful friend.
Today he is no more with us. I feel extremely helpless and sad for not being able to be by his side when he needed me most, and when he was battling for life somewhere. I had no idea where he was and how he was until someone told me he was no more (30th Oct 2008). I admit, it is simply selfishness on my part that I did not have time to enquire his whereabouts. Really time doesn’t wait for anyone.

Now all I can do is to console myself telling it was an honour that I became one of his best friends in his small life where he made everyone around smile and laugh no matter what he had to conceal beneath his impish smile.
I remember the moments we cracked jokes together, he was famous for his Saharukh Khan caricature.
I was amongst a few people he shared all pangs with and poured his inside out.
It was last in 2006, two years ago I had received a couple of his mails including the last one.
These are the only relics of our wonderful friendship I have with me now, besides those timeless and priceless moments when we laughed, smiled, ate, played (badminton), sang (mantra songs), danced and fought together.

On 2nd of May 2006 he had written:

It is been so long that we are not in contact. Just felt that something is missing and mailed you right away. So how is life there? You must be enjoying! Coz you are the person of that kind, wherever u go make whole thing enjoyable right! Nothing so special about me, trying for a job hope to get within this month. I am really missing your company... specially your jokes. Now what to write more, take care do the best and achieve your goal. God bless you.

I had replied to him from Pune right away:

What a pleasant surprise I received a mail from Mr. Saharukh khan of Sikkim. I am fine, but it’s quite hot here........missing cool weather of Darjeeling. So when are you going to siliguri...How is the coordinator of mind set tutorial (not the director as he claims)? Give my remembrance to him too. And is k.k.k.k.k...........kiran alright . Ask him, if he misses me? Don’t worry you will get a great job...I will pray for you....I will ask my god.....के हाम्रो आग्या चै काट्को हो ?? (Doesn't Agya deserves something good?)

Take care and keep in touch.
Then we had a few mails in between. He would often write about his love life and and other personal pangs. The last mail I had received from him was on 26 October 2006:


I knew you are the only one who really stood in my bad and good times. Thanks for the support. You’ll be always in my mind. Hey I got job in a school (near Pakyong) and these days I am slightly busy. But I can’t get her out of my mind. She still conquers my heart, mind and soul. I don’t know why I love her this way????? Tell me my friend. Anyways I’ll try to console my heart, just take care and be a sedulous scholar.

I am not sure if he hears me anymore even if I say something. But still....Agya wherever you are, we all will miss you a lot. specially, your jokes, Saharukh Khan caricature, and your wonderful friendship.

I replied to his last mail with some positive words. After that I didn’t receive any mail from him. Then I too left India, went to UK and came to France and without notice two years had passed. Today I hear he is no more with us, what an injustice from the makers or are they reduced to just movers and shakers?


There are a few songs he aways liked me to sing. I know who he wanted it to be dedicated to. But now he's gone the song will only remind me of wonderful human being and his love tales. This is dedicated to the love of his life who he often dreamt of while alive.


सधैं सधैं आई रहन्छ तिम्रो यादहरू
यो मन एक्लै गुन्गुनाउछ अतीत का ती धुनहरु
कति तड़पे पर्खी रहे फर्की तिमी आएनौ बेदनामा गीत कोरे
सुनिढेऊ यो गीत मेरो अमर रहोस् त्यो प्रीत हाम्रो
हेर्दा हेर्दै पारी क्षितिजमाआँशु खस्छ थाहा नपाई
सक्ने भए फर्काई ल्याउथे ममेरी माया तिम्रो हाथ समाई
कति तड़पे पर्खी रहेफर्की तिमी आएनौ
बेदनामा संगीत रचे
सुनिढेऊ यो संगीत मेरो
अमर रहोस् त्यो प्रीत हाम्रो
सपना मेरो तिमी संगै जीउने
जुनी जुनी तिमी लाई नै पाउने
तर काहा पुग्थ्यो र सोचे जति सबै
सधैं सधैं आई रहन्छतिम्रो यादहरू........