I LOST MYSELF....SOMEWHERE!

When I was barely 14, I consciously decided to give up eating meats as I realised by doing otherwise we were merely living at the cost of innocent lives. For next 7 years or so I didn’t eat anything that moved (of course when they are alive). And I was so proud to be one, never felt myself selfish, never faced oneself in the mirror with guilt.
But then somehow as I grew up, I started taking the same thing that had been rejected by this very soul 7 years ago.
I can give any number of reasons for that to prove my innocence and defend myself but I won’t do that as it would be mere cunningness of me to give justifications for starting to live at the cost of innocent lives again.
Perhaps, I lost my true self somewhere or may be some of the sacred emotions got smeared as I grew up and entered the real temporal, materialistic world where the only truth seems to be, “SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST”.

Some times, I quietly sit by myself and ponder over these things-things we do; to survive, to be happy and to move ahead…….